Insomnia

have you ever got to the point where you were just chillin....and you just wanted to break down. like, your day was fine and everything is good, but you just feel like something isnt right. thats how i feel right now. with the stresses of life, it just feels like i am dealing with so much, but im not really dealing with anything....not at this moment anyway. but the only thing that will make me feel better right now, is if i shed a tear.

My grandma has been gone from this world for almost two years now and it hurts so bad that shes not here with us right now. thinking about how she will never see me graduate from college.......or have a family......or see my children at least. it just hurts so bad to keep going without someone who cared so much about you. theres not one day that goes by that i dont think about her. everytime i talked to her, she would tell me how proud she was of all of her grandchildren and that she loved that we were keeping our lives together and staying out of trouble. and with life nowdays, you know how hard it is to stay focused. i just wish that she was here to see me be successful like she wanted me to be.

ok.....talking about that has made me feel a lot better.....

i hate it when i cant sleep.....cuz then my mind just runs everywhere.

-MDot-
"Loyalty, Honor, Valor"